gmail troubles

i try and try and can't log-in, some days are like that and some days are a bit better

it seems like time goes so slow but then it is gone either way and can't be caslled back to use it, i'd like to make better use of it just no energy to do so

i ask the Lord and he helps me see what is important and then things fit together better and the time doesn't seem like such a waste after all

a long week

Well another week has passed and I'm still struggling to get around, but I can do a little more than yesterday and I guess that is good. I'm working on a quilt that is some thing different than I've done before, this one takes a lot of cutting and that means standing, I don't do well standing, so it is slow work, but it is my work & I'll get it done very slowly and love almost every minute of it.
Hubby gave me his cold so that doesn't help me with everything else I have to deal with - the the Lord helps me deal with it all.

My poppie fell this week and is in the hospital - he had his 95th birthday last week, so things are going slow for him too. Mom seems to be a total worry wart & someone has to be with him 24 hours a day - I'm not sure how she will manage him when & if he gets to go back home she drives me crazy at times now.

Time to see if these legs will hold me up long enough to get some work done.

St Patrick's Day 2009

another day - with new hope - the Son shines and all is good (even when it hurts) - today I struggle on and I know He is with me. I have heard it said 'no pain no gain' - I must be gaining much - I just have to figure out what it is.

1 more day

A long day - again the pain of continuing. Life maybe too short, but some days it seems so long. There are joys, there are sorrows, we laugh, we cry, we sometimes even laugh till we cry. We begin and end with joy and sorrow. I try to do good to others & for others and then I do or say something so stupid, I wonder if it undoes all the good, but I continue to try to share God's love. I can go on only because I know Jesus died for all my sins and all those stupid things I do & don't know why. I can't understand all of His love or how it all works - it is enough to believe & know I am loved that much - you are too - just accept it, it changes everything.

dealing with time

home again from a rough morning - 4 blown veins before the iv was set - that made me late for pt - but there was enough time to where out & find new pain again - this MS is such a horrible thing - but the Lord will see me through till He takes me home
some sewing for others will help get my mind off the hurt & the loneliness of being alone with the pain, i really try hard not to let it show, but am not successful many days
this helps - i will be able to be ok when everyone gets home - its just so hard for very long -maybe today they will find a cure

long time

it seems like i have spent so much time in pain for so long - i never feel like sharing - i wouldn't want to have anyone suffer the pain for me - i don't wish to suffer it myself - but the Lord is always with me and He does see me through each day

i do many things to keep my mind from dwelling - but it is hard at times.

presently i have soldiers to write to - they are all so far from their family & loved ones - what pain that must be for them all - i am writing to about 20 and just rotate down the list - i pray my silly daily words are good for their spirits & that it does them good - i know it does me good . i started writing as a Lenten act last year & have had my list change a few times - i even got to greet a few of the soldiers as the returned from war - that sure humbled me

i am going to try to add writing more often - but we will see how that goes

easy to pick out & put down

I was shopping yesterday at a grocery store, this is where I do most of my grocery shopping. They have a competitors price match, so it has always made it easier for me to just shop one store (even with the wheelchair grocery shopping is a real effort). I have asked different assistant managers, at different times about any new stores that I want to price match, before I would use the ads & had been told "we will match them all, we would rather have all your business, that for you to go somewhere else". So I have used price matches from all the stores I might otherwise shop at for over a year. Yesterday (by myself in my wheelchair) one of the assistant managers, came up to me after I had finished my shopping, and asked if they could talk to me. I thinking that maybe I was the 100,000 customer or something - said "sure - did I win something?" To my total surprise I was informed ' I realize you use price matches to save money - but you are abusing the program and we wouldn't price match , but only' they named off a few selected stores - I said I could just as easily do my shopping in another town (beings we live in the country & it is the same distance one direction as the other & the there was some blah, blah, blah - 'I'll check with the manager & see if we'll price match so & so stores, I didn't realize you lived out there'. I was called later in the day & given a specific list of stores I could now price match. But the whole thing makes me wonder if they didn't know me well, by the fact I am in a wheelchair, would anyone have ever said anything, I know other people price match from the same store I have, but I do try to minimize my trips to town so when I go I may have more price matches at one time than someone how lives in town or works & is in town - thus makes more frequent trips so they aren't noticed as much. This is just another put down of this marginal person in society.